Saturday, July 23, 2011

a magical presence...

so i am reminding myself on a daily basis to
be present.
my fairly new little mantra if you will.
not only to be, but to stay present.
sometimes it's hard to do with all the life i live.
so many irons in the fire, all of importance to me.
i stress a lot of the time about the little things that don't deserve my time-
making me not-so-present in the big things that do.

oddly enough,
one of them is this silly little blog.
big to me, even if not to the world.

why stress about it you ask?
i will be completely transparent when i say,
i miss the days of me only archiving for my family.
a little selfish i know, but i think about the time i used to have.

refusing to live in the past-
i simply am recognizing that it is something that i have a complete
and total passion for, archiving my family's memories,
it should, will and needs to become a better priority.
because, let's face it- it already is.
it fuels me.
lights me up.
tells my story.

life is too short.
we all get caught up in our day to day monotony,
i can firmly recognize one thing-
it makes me love and cherish my life and my family even more than i already do.
i am blessed to have found a passion, a love, a faith, and a fire that fuels my soul.
some people spend a lifetime searching for this...

Bliss Boutique Photography
has kept me sane in times of insanity
and continued the chaos in times peace.

i think so.

as i blah blah blah-
it reminds to remain present in both. 
stay balanced in both.
sometimes i struggle.
we all do.

as an entrepreneur by nature and clearly at heart, i understand the complete
passion for never stopping, working until wee hours, making things happen.
believe me when i say-
my brain never stops, add the creativity with every freakin' thing i set my eyes on,
coupled with being a gemini-
you can only imagine.

as i dream as i do, i have a clear cut vision of goals and passions and life not yet lived,
but i can't get too caught in those dreams where i merely don't recognize the present.
the now.

as i remind myself, maybe this can serve as a reminder you-

your time is valuable.
priceless to those you value.
stay focused by setting boundaries.
family time is family time.
work time is work time.
set attainable goals.
stay passionate.
know when to fuel the fire.
know when to put a fire out.
keep yourself honest.
listening is just as important as expressing.
take baby steps, to big dreams.
make sure you don't step on the ones you want with you,
after you awake from all your dreaming.
prioritize by recognizing what matters most
and most importantly realize who matters most.

i think by realizing even just a few of these things,
it will not only make you try harder to become present,
your presence will come to you-
and you will want nothing more than to be present.

i guarantee that if i can stick to this- you can too.
not that both my worlds are not beautiful as they are-
but there is always, always, room for improvement.
as an inner struggle for me,
just know- i always hold myself a little more accountable
when a post gets published on this little, but big-to-me blog.

sounds easy enough i tell myself.
sounds like a plan i tell myself.
but i told myself.
now i can count on my inner self, it will hold me accountable, as will you-
whoever is reading this...

so you still don't get the stressing part?
i don't blame you...
that was a classic v. gibbs ramble at it's finest.
so in a simple non- v.gibbs ramble,
the translation goes like this:

we were at Disneyland in may.
we are in mid- july.

big fat sigh!
shall i say,
a deep long calming inhale.
a deep long calming exhale.
sometimes remembering to just breathe in general is nice.
you freakin' feel me already!?!
i am so close to being present with blog posts i can feel it.
you get it now- don't cha!
silly little me and this silly little blog...

enjoy the show{s}!
i did my best to make you feel present. 
and please don't hate that half the pics were taken with.........
my phone.


{pause playlist music now}

after all,
when you are present-
magic happens.